Sunday, May 01, 2005

The Unemployment Chronicles Part I...

Well, I am definitely unemployed. I'm at a crossroads, God has closed the door and I'm waiting for that window to open...cliche, blah, blah, even more overused cliche, blah, blah, blah. I've heard it all. As much as I would love to sit around all day in my ratty red plaid bathrobe and slippers, I won't let myself do it. To be more precise, my parents won't let me do it, but I don't want to be that unemployed loser, almost 30, who stopped changing clothes, started drinking heavily stereotype. It could happen; I can see it happening without much difficulty.

Here I am. I'm turning 28 next month and I'm still having the same never-ending question spinning through my mind: what do I want to be when I grow up? Here are my options:

1. Writer. I could easily see myself writing all day long. Happily sitting at Starbucks drinking cup after cup of coffee while letting the muse do her best. Maybe if the writer's block ever goes away. It's been with me for almost two years. This is when people get inspired to start writing: after losing one's job, getting dumped, or having a freak out. Since two of the three occur on a semi-regular basis for me, I should be breaking the block any time now.

2. Librarian. I am over halfway finished at Wayne State. It would be a shame to throw away all the time, effort and money I spent on the program. Unfortunately, I'm completely burnt out on the library thing for the foreseeable future. Maybe I'll re-examine this option in a few weeks or so. The job market isn't looking very good right now.

3. Professional chef. I love to cook. Maybe I should look into Schoolcraft College's program. This isn't a very serious option, but it does exist.

There are other ideas floating around my noggin, but I'm too exasperated to think much right now. Tomorrow I plan to sleep until I wake up, shower, get dressed adequately and drive my bad self over to Michigan Works! (The exclamation point is part of the name, I believe) to file a resume with the state as a stipulation of the unemployment benefits thingie (I don't want to leech off the system, but it would be nice to have a bit of money each week for gas, bills and other expenses.) Unfortunately, Michigan Works! is a block away from my old office. I hope I don't see anyone I know/knew. On that first non-work workday, I also plan on having a little bit of fun, but mostly that is involving reading Dr. Zhivago at Dunkin Dounts. Maybe I'll go to the gym. God, my life is dull.


ago-go said...

i think some of us never know what we want to be when we grow up. no, that's a lie. i know what i want to be when i grow up, independently wealthy. too bad there's no course for that.

Vavoom said...

Your choices sound pretty good. I don't think your life is dull. Now's when it gets exciting. Lots of opportunity out there. Be patient, with your eyes open and your next gig will show up. Sorry, it's hard not to use Anthony Robbins like language here, but honest -- your new gig will come.

Egan said...

Shit, I turn 32 on Wednesday and I haven't a freaking clue what I want to to do with my life. I think about it over and over. If I knew what the hell I wanted to do, then I could at least work on a plan to achieve that goal.

Don't fret Jen. I think every one of us goes through this and many of us never get past it. I keep telling myself this is the year I will figure out what the hell I want to do. This sitting in a cubicle for eight hours a day bullshit is great for blogging, but not so great for career building. You will find something.

Julie said...

A lot of my friends have gotten to the point where they find work that, while not fulfilling, doesn't sap their energy--thereby leaving them energized for non-well paying extracurricular activities: writing, teaching adjunct, volunteering, rabid film fandom, etc.

I know that isn't a very happy solution to the problem, but it's the best most of us have come up with. And it takes away the "what am I called to do?" anxiety.

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